Save Me From Myself: How I Found God, Quit Korn, Kicked Drugs, and Lived to Tell My Story - Brian "Head" Welch

Brian achieved his life-long dream to be a rock star. He "made it" as a lead guitarist in Korn, but his life fell apart. Brian tells his story of conversion to the Christian faith with great honesty. I related to many aspects of this book. I, too, wanted desperately to be a rock star. I also spent years in a drug and alcohol induced haze, jumping from bar to bar, party to party. I, too, found that this lifestyle was not at all what I expected it to be. Brian writes, "It was fun, but it wasn't what I imagined it would be. ... When I used to dream about the fame and the rock star life, I always pictured myself being extremely happy. I pictured myself having fun all the time and loving life. I never saw myself as an out-of-control alcoholic and drug addict. I never imagined one of my band members would become suicidal. I never thought the pressure would be so serious that everyone in the band would fight all the time" (88). I, too, became suicidal and reckless. I, too, experienced a radical spiritual awakening. To this day, I am grateful to even be alive. I found myself relating to many of Brian's early Christian experiences. The major difference: I got sucked into Calvinism and he went the Pentecostal, tongues-speaking route. But I do remember all the doubts, trials, and yet, initial joys of being saved from a life that was undeniably twisted. Brian has only been a believer for a short time, and some of his reflections demonstrate this, but overall, he speaks with such honesty that he wins you over.